kait.

This week, everything fell through. And I couldn't be happier.

I lost a job that I never officially had, I admittedly did allow myself to cry over it for about 10 minutes-and then I told myself that I was too cute and too awesome to have anything real to cry over, and went running and brainstorming for 5 miles. I came back, enrolled in a Nutrition Consultant program, edited my business plan, and started an application for a business license. After those ten minutes of tears that day, there was never another negative thought given to the situation, and I wasn't even trying to be positive, which astounded me. Without this bogus reason to move back to Sacramento, I would never have had an event that pushed me into starting my business NOW. Or, at least, in less than 100 days from now. I AM BLESSED.

So, now I'm looking for a part-time kitchen job, or not. If one comes my way that doesn't get in the way of studying that covers enough for rent and food, that's cool. If not, living at my parents is actually PRETTY DAMN AWESOME. I'm sitting on a security deposit and one month's rent right now, and (thank you mom and dad) my living situation has caused me to spend less than $20 in three weeks. So the next 100 days are dedicated toward studying and getting into the best shape ever, cause if becoming a personal trainer is also part of the plan, I NEED MORE MUSCLES. My fat can stay where it is, I actually like it.

Every day my vision of the future becomes exponentially clearer. Every day I've been meditating at the creek, taking in the plant spirits, building my personal dreams and goals as well as visions of a peaceful earth and FREE PEOPLE. I WANT TO POUR ALL THE LOVE I HAVE INTO THIS WORLD AND ITS PEOPLE, in hopes that it can help form the crux of OUR MASS AWAKENING.

I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED.

YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU NEED.

WE ALL HAVE EVERYTHING WE NEED.

IN ORDER TO EVOLVE INTO OUR HIGHER SELVES, WE MUST, IN EVERY DELIBERATION, GO TOWARD THE LOVE.
PURSUE LOVING ACTION.
BECOME A SHINING EXAMPLE OF HOW BRIGHTLY ONE CAN RADIATE WITH KINDNESS AND JOY! GREET EVERY NEW PERSON WITH A HUG!
SKIP INSTAEAD OF WALKING!
JUMP IN PUDDLES!
TELL SOMEONE HOW SPECIAL THEY ARE!
TELL YOURSELF HOW AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL, AND BRILLIANT YOU ARE!
EVERYONE IS ALL OF THESE THINGS, LET IT SHOW TO YOURSELF!


I can't wait for this adventure ahead:-)

So as I'm getting business stuff together this week, creating new forms, revising lists of costs, pricing, etc., I was editing my mission statement when I realized how cool it would be if fitness instruction were tied into the services as well. I'm pretty damn set on it now, I'm gonna get my personal training certification!!!! The highest price I saw was $700, that's hella cheap! Oh, and if I do an independent study version, it only takes 3 months of studying and workshops! OH HELL YES.



Life is EXPLODING every day this week, it feels soooo good to be back in the flow.

Just quit my job.

Today while out running I decided that I'm never going to work another day in my life. If I get paid, then that's way cool, but it won't be for working. Only for playing.

Been working on getting a business together. Personal cheffing/nutrition consulting/home culinary education(all petroleum-freeee!). Made inventory forms today. And edited my client intake forms. It was fun.

I'll also be starting a new job April 1st for a raw co-op in Sac.

Moving to Sac sometime next week, probably next monday. Can't move until I (a)pick up my last paycheck this friday, and (b)buy a bike that I actually like so I can get around there.

I've met so many amazing people here who have become family.

Somewhat recently wrote a list of 21 goals for 2009. Maybe I'll write that list down here later.

I got a text message early yesterday that my dog died. I stayed in bed crying and trying to read until 2:00, then went out used book shopping, got 7 new books. Went out running to blow off some steam afterwards, and what felt like a semi-epic run ended up only being 5 miles. Meh. I ate the first loquats of the season, and found a fricking cherimoya tree in Berkeley. After my eyes stopped being too blurry to read, I dove into Arnold Ehret's book the Mucusless Diet Healing System. It already surpasses any modern nutrition manual I've ever read. I gave my body today off for stretching and resting. Still crying a little bit. Found a cute carribean vegan restaurant right by my house, and was able to get a raw curry wrap there. Score!

I was a bit of a bitch to my roommates later in the night, oops.

Miles run this week: 19.

And some baked corn tortillas. First time in five months I've eaten anything cooked. I got heartburn and nausea. Big surprise. I can't be eating foods that don't do anything for me. I love myself far too much for that. I only wanted orange grapefruit juice for the rest of the day. Juice, and lots of digestive enzymes tonight. HOLY CRAP my stomach keeps twisting in knots.

Just ran 3 miles. Meh.

Miles run so far this week: 14.5. Hoping to be at 20 by the end of saturday. Just keep upping the mileage goal each week.

Life just keeps patching and stitching itself together. I don't even have to try anymore. Things go from wrong to perfect immediately, or maybe it's just my attitude that makes things seem that way.

<3

I started missing someone again a few days ago. Why now? I thought I'd long let that one go.

Whatev.

I'm starting my period today.

And I have nothing but feelings about everything.

I could go for a long hard run right now...

It chased me off the sidewalk. It looked like it was going to pounce on me or something.

Just had an amazing 7-mile run w/ 15-minute yoga break at the halfway point in a garden.

One of my new years' resolutions is to be able to run(not run/walk) a half marathon by the first half of the year. Sounds doable IF I put in a ton of effort. Two and a half months ago I was wheezing after running only 100 yards. I've had some pretty nasty sports asthma all my life. Then one day in November, a few weeks after I started cutting back on oils and nuts, it was gone. The first day I really ever ran in my life, I was going out just to walk, and I started running, and didn't stop for 3 miles. I felt so high from it.